Saturday, March 12, 2011


This is such a true depiction of who I was and where I am now!!!

Friday, March 4, 2011

Feelings... WO,WO,WO,WO Feelings!

Feelings~ man am I full of them!!!

There are times that I have had to call some of my friends to make sure that I am not being too sensitive b/c I definitely can be~ ugh! There are times when the anger is boiling inside that it's hard to contain, and there are times that the love and joy are overflowing!

I have witnessed feelings on so many levels just by observing my children. Watching my oldest daughter sing and dance around the house because we are going to the store to use her birthday money. And then the very next hour, having her grumble and complain about having to do her schoolwork. My son complain about not wanting to go to the zoo and watching his feelings change when we get there and are able to feed the giraffes for free!

I have found that this can even have an impact on the one area of my life that should stay consistent~ my walk with the Lord. When I am upset because I forgot to pay a bill and now have a late fee or the house is a mess and I am desperately trying to get it under control or my kids are having some "moments" I would much rather them not be having, I often find myself feeling far away from the one person who is always near~ Jesus!

Does this mean that He is indeed far away? ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!

The way that I feel has no impact on whether the Lord is walking with me. The Bible says that He will never leave us nor forsake us. It says in 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP) "Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully." Often times when I look back on situations, I have found that He was carrying me... my mother dieing and my friend dieing are two instances where I was confused and unsure and my faith waivered. It was the hardest time in my life. I talked with God, but barely... I was angry and sad and hard! I am so thankful that I stayed consistent in talking to Him, because, looking back, I can see Jesus was carrying me!

It is amazing how many feelings bombard our day... the one thing that absolutely helps me is when I am having a moment~ happy, sad, angry, etc... I sing to Jesus... I thank Him for all that He has done in my life, even when it feels like nothing good has been done... there is always the fact that He chose me, He loves me, He never leaves me, He died for me, He forgives me... It says in Colossians 3:2 " Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things." When I take my mind off of what is going on in my life and focus on Him~ the creator of my life~ my feelings are then FILLED with His awesomeness and power!

I encourage you, my friends, that whenever you are feeling happy, sad, angry, loved~ sing to Jesus, talk to Jesus~ stay focused on Him!!! It is amazing how quickly our feelings will change into one of thankfulness, love, joy and peace!